You Can’t Pray Away The Gay
Being sexually assaulted doesn’t mean you are or will become, gay. Donnie McClurkin asserts that a sexual assault he experienced at the age of 8 has played a crucial role in shaping his past sexual attraction to men. What happened to him as a child was terrible, but I contend that nothing that happens to you can make you gay or straight. It looks like McClurkin is still dealing with serious internal demons, yet he continues to preach from the pulpit. He goes on to blame his father’s absence and lack of affection on his prior inability to understand how to show meaningful love as a man. That, I agree with. The rest was religious fodder for a spiritually starved flock. What he delivered was a bigoted message. Being gay = being cursed? Ok. I don’t have any problem with McClurkin giving his personal testimony or preaching the way he desires to his congregation, but when he addresses gay youth and butch lesbians in an attempt to paint us as evil he takes hypocrisy and idiocy to varying levels each significantly higher than before.
In the first video he sets his sights on openly gay singer and preacher, Tonex. I smell a sin and it’s middle name is jealousy. He does however go on to express the “love the sinner, hate the sin” creed when it came to expressing his distaste with Tonex’s openness, but not before calling him a straight up “perversion”. Interestingly he didn’t have anything to say about Tonex until he came out in September 2009. Something else I’ve noticed as of late is how the “ex-gay” label is becoming somewhat of a hot commodity. What’s with the notoriety that certain ex-gays attain? Homosexuality is already demonized in practically every facet of life, yet it’s detestability is enough to be overlooked as long as you come out of it. You’re almost guaranteed a certain “celebrity” status and you’re granted a “come out of the closet for free” card as long as you espouse and denounce homosexuality. It reminds me of theblack guy who was asked to sit in the front row of one of John McCain’s town hall meetings on the campaign trail. One black man in a room full of conservatives plus one Sarah Palin. He was the black guy who begged McCain to step up the negative attacks on Pres. Obama. Yes, he begged, but I digress because the analogyisn’t fair at all. To be an ex-gay in Church is like being an newly conservative ex-liberal in a room full of rabid conservatives.
Oh, you were an alcoholic, crack-head, wife beating, drug dealer? Yeah, well, we’ve got an ex-gay in the house. Next.
The problem I have with this is if McClurkin is so content, why not live a humble life of obscurity out of the lime light. Or, stay in it and do what made you famous in the first place, but whatever you do, stop harming gay youth! Tell your story, but don’t tell others their story. He knows better than anyone that hiding in the black church is a full time job, but he doesn’t have to hide anymore so he’s removed from it. As long as he’s speaking out against homosexuality while struggling with attraction to men, he’s okay within the black church because he’s telling them what they want to hear. He should know all too well that closeted Christian gays and lesbians who feel trapped need unconditional love so badly. How do you go from singing God’s praises to berating the vulnerable? McClurkinhas a large, black, Christian, socially conservative (when it suits their purposes) support system that is almost impenetrable. His fan following from his singing, his congregation, priests and pastor colleagues and a growing list of Christian and non-Christian proponents make up a variety of Christian denominations who lend their support to Donnie McClurkin. To most gays he has become the side show attraction of the black church, drawing the suspecting and unsuspecting masses deeper into a reality that is all his own, and stirring an already boiling over pot. How long will it last? His rants seem to come and go in yearly spurts and he hasn’t toned down the rhetoric one bit, instead it’s been amped up considerably. The emotional baggage his sermons project is daunting and when you consider the psychological dysfunction within the messages, and the fact that he has such a widely accepting following, it causes me to take pause. What I see is a man that may no longer act upon his sexual desire, but has he really changed his orientation? I’ll keep my gay-dar to myself.
He had this to say about lesbians, “These young girls are just as bad as the boys in homosexuality, you don’t see it. They can hide … but there are some evil young hard butch girls.”