I am not looking for my first time, as that happened years ago.
The Tremont Hotel Chicago was situated in an enclave, surrounded by the city view just off of the Magnificent Mile.
It was the second time she had come to visit and I was not looking for a good time.
I was a lover seeking love.
Grief is a motherfucker.
It has the tendency to exploit weaknesses, manifested as intense feeling and strong emotion about any and everything. It tends to place these precious vulnerabilities into tiny unkempt boxes, daring you to compartmentalize all that you have been bottling up to that moment. Boxed in like a baby cow waiting to become [...]
Fear of loss is a devastating sort of dread to live with. It consumes…
Each person’s healing path is different and unique to that individual. My own has grown out of a basic need to survive this final episode, based not only on personal experience and new-found resources discovered along the way, but on the knowledge [...]
Grief can be a very lonely process…
I picked up my cell phone which was wet from my tears. The touch screen had become unresponsive due to the moisture. I’d been on the phone with my mom for the greater part of the evening. She had become my stress release in the weeks prior [...]
I took a leave of absence from work to care for my girlfriend full-time when it was deemed that the second round of chemo was no longer working. I’m convinced that it accomplished the exact opposite result in fact. As fate would have it, the day my leave began would be the last night [...]
The hurt I feel inside seems unbearable but I know it is bearable in its very nature because after all – I am bearing it. I have questioned myself and everything around since the day my girlfriend died. Just last April she was misdiagnosed with stage III breast cancer. It should have been stage IV. [...]
Today was my first day back at work since Kelly passed. It was unremarkable, save for a few tears here and there that I did my best to hide while shedding. How insignificant and ordinary everything becomes without your best friend and/or soul mate to help liven up the day. She always managed to do [...]
My girlfriend, best friend, confidant and soul mate passed away after a valiant fight against an especially aggressive breast cancer. She was the light of my life and many others as she affected each and every one of us in her own special way. She was a vibrant spirit – containing a [...]
“You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel no matter how hard you try.”
That quote is in reference to just some of the things I have been feeling quite deeply lately. I’ve had a lot on my mind, [...]
This time of year has historically been a difficult challenge, especially in terms of love and relationships. Over the course of my dating life the transition from fall to winter has not only been seasonal but also deeply emotional for me. I often try to block out the reasons why this occurs. Like I won’t [...]