A Labor of Love
The first few months following my daughter’s birth were an absolute whirlwind. Primarily a result of my increasing insecurity, exacerbated by semi-crippling anxiety about whether or not I’d be the best parent I could possibly be for her. I worried that our bond would be negatively impacted if our legal relationship, especially, was to never [...]
Deciphering A Purpose
Every day I reflect on the person I am becoming.
A constant work in progress I used to call myself, but it’s more like a constantly evolving process in which I’m resolving my former doubt – living life as I know how.
There are times when eliminating toxic things and people from my world take their toll.
But [...]
Video: The Birth of Zoey
The drive to the hospital was quiet and surreal and over in a relatively short time. The music coming from the radio was upbeat, in stark contrast to the darkness that surrounded us at that early morning hour. I felt as if I was floating with no place to land, but I didn’t want to land just yet. Everything [...]
Unforgettable
Under normal circumstances, I would have refused her offer, but these were unusual circumstances and I was in no mood to refuse anything. Not from her. She did not know it yet, but I was never one for carrying on casual relationships. Not in any sense of the word. That is completely outside of my [...]
Lost In Thought
Today, I sit and contemplate, and wonder to myself because my mind takes me all over the place on days like this. I dig deep within and get frustrated at the direction the world is moving in. I look at culture and politics, status and class, social-networking and relationships and I’m left with anger and frustration that I [...]
A Poem to Self
My healed black ego
Hides well under the scars
Placed carefully within
Misshapen bouts of depression
Can’t think clear enough
Through the emotional discarding
Of those well-sung lullabies
I used to sing myself at night
Flying through the open window
Out of a heavily burdened mind
Makes me thank God
For how feminine love makes me
Feels so free to alleviate
Any discord that plagues me
Like how the daily motions
of dallying in masculinity
Cause others to abhor
As [...]
Baby Steps: Bits And Pieces Of My Weekend
Having your current girlfriend and ex together in the same room is not as awkward as most people think.I’m not sure why it’s so unpleasant for most people, but I think a lot of it has to do with the depth of the relationships, the personality and characteristics of the women and the luck factor of [...]
My Aries Taurus Cusp Has A Moon in Aquarius
My longest relationships have been with Tauruses. There is this deep, formidable, sensual reciprocity that knocks me off my feet with every connection. These bonds have withstood the test of time. There is no rushing in or out of relationships with Taurus women because affection and devotion come easy after love and trust is established, but [...]
Sometimes Women and Sport Don’t Mix
As soon as I answered the phone, her question went something like this, “So I was just another one of your mistresses too?
She had just finished reading one of my blogs, A Year Later Continued, and the incident I described on the football field resonated strongly with her because there was a similar one that occurred a few years prior [...]
Early Memories of Female Masculinity
One summer I stood outside of a highway rest area with my siblings. A big 18-wheeler rolled into the lot and parked. The driver hopped down and after securing his truck he headed toward the entrance where we stood. There was nothing distinct about his walk. Nothing special. He wore a pair of blue jeans, a plaid shirt and some work boots. His head was shaved into a buzz cut.
To this day, [...]
